HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIE

1. You ARE my best friend and I do love you all the time.I always have, and I always will. My love for you is deep and permanent.

2.My love is boundless. I love you despite– no… because of your faults and unattractive behaviors. They are spice and real and they make up part of who you are. Your character is fascinating, and I can only hope to continue to be an important part of your life for as long as you are an important part of mine.

3.You have been with me and been there for me ever since I met you. You’ve had more faith in me than I have ever had in myself… and I am endlessly grateful for that. You’ve provided me with an anchor of support, if not always sanity. With you, I feel that there are emotional things that will not change, even if our two separate lives do change on their own. I feel like there is something real and permanent about my friendship with you. It is like the sky when the mountains may crumble. It is like a background in front of which I will assume the various characters and personalities that this world directs me to.

4. There is nothing in this world that I would not do for you. I trust you with everything I have, and everything I am. I believe that you know this… and that you have known this for a long time.

5. you are a kind of my soul-sibling… and that we’ve been together for multiple lives. I can create elaborate theories and stories about our past lives together… the one where I was your beloved pet bird… or some other silly nonsense. But the story that seems to be most true is one that places us as protector and best friend to each other.

6. Mutual and equal trust… as if we were employed to do the same task, and to do it together. In a world of lies and deception, you were the only one I trusted, and I was the only one that you could trust. Images and ideas similar to this have struck home with me and reminded me of you. I’m not your soul mate… and you are not mine. But I believe that we have known each other for an inconceivably long time.

Thanks for all the great memories, long talks, and laughs. Thanks for being there through my ups and downs. Thanks for being the best friend a girl could have. Thanks for being true, and thanks for being YOU.

I love you so much, thanks for being my bestie… Happy Birthday!!!

Add a comment July 5, 2011

Prelude to “I DO”

Dearest Yani and Mongs,

Have you ever dreamed the sweetest dream only to find that the reality is even sweeter? Have you ever gone the extra mile for someone and discovered that you’d have gone a thousand more? Have you ever felt the realization that everything good you hoped for was nowhere near as wonderful as what you found? If you answered yes to these three questions, you know how it feels then. hehehehehehe. If you can’t answer yes to them… keep hoping, because miracles do happen. Just not where and how you might expect.

The journey may still a little bit  blur for both of you like the dullness of gray asphalt and white lines flashed before you but that is the vision of the passions that will come and will guide you both. It’s true, that love is where you find it, but often where you find it is not where you might have ever planned to look. Sometimes the mate, your soul has longed for is farther away than you can imagine. But time and space mean nothing to love and dreams. They are mere objects to be overcome. I am living proof that they can be.

Your own fears is tormenting you. Your afraid it might be he who will be faced with less than he had hoped for. But for all you know you  had become his brass ring and he had to grasp for you. But If he failed, it would not be for the lack of effort. Still, I do not believe that failure is possible for both of you. Fate had put you on this course, you are two souls who could drink deeply from each other; you are two wanderers through life who could, side by side, making the journey worth taking. You just needed to press onward so you can both continue towards your  date with destiny.

For mongskie, i know that  thinking of your love for this woman is yet unseen… But for sure youre dreaming of what that first encounter would be like. Playing it over and over in your imagination with different possibilities. And in the end, it was like nothing you had ever conceived… more satisfying than anything you would have thought possible…

For yani, even when expecting the phone to ring, can startle you. You can be terrified you’d sound as nervous as you felt. The cool-as-a-cucumber demeanor that is normally you; that you had carried and portrayed so successfully, was fast unraveling. Your stomach, which never gives you trouble, churned gas at a record pace. Your throat that never tightens sought to deny you speech or air. You just needed to grab that receiver to hear that sweet voice, so that all your fears will melt away.

The fires between you should now start to stoked, I can feel that both of your desires are now becoming alive. Two people who were to become the missing piece in each others life… two people who were about to share their love and their passion… two people stepping deliberately and deliciously into the future.

“So now all you need to do is figure out when that forever should start.”

With Much Hope,

Dovz

Add a comment June 23, 2011

During the March 11 Earthquake ( late post)

 

It was around 3 p.m. I was on a video conference with my coleagues from another side of the globe at the 27th floor of my office building when the ground began to shudder uncontrolably. And it was different. It was then that I felt the ground move under me slightly—it was almost imperceptible, like a subway rumbling through a tunnel far beneath my feet. My first option was to run for my life, but I saw my coleagues all collected and calm so i opted to stay. Then another rumbling came after and it was huge. I hid under my desk crying and praying for my life and so as the others. I felt that was my end . I was still able to call my family and friends abroad  in between sobs,  while I think of the life of my family and friends here.

Just minutes after the second one another huge one was felt. I was already shaking while talking on the phone with mama and mars. I ran for the door, about 60 feet away. The ground was shaking so violently that it was difficult to run in a straight line, like trying to sprint across the deck of a ship being tossed by swells but only to find out that the elevator was down. The facility Manager and my other colleagues and staff was trying to calm me down coz i really wanted to go down that time. And they assured me that the building is new and earthquake proof and were all safe. There were few more aftershocks after that, the ground continued to tremble, albeit less violently . I would find out later that afternoon that the quake was a magnitude 8.9, the strongest earthquake to hit Japan in recorded history. Some people were visibly shaken. There were a few women crying, people pointing up at the buildings as they shook, but many others appeared calm and relaxed.

Making my way back to my home was an epic journey. My car was on the parking lot 4 floors underground. I never wanted to go down there to get my car as it was not a safe thing to do. The rail system in Tokyo was completely shut down and millions were trying to make their way home on foot with an 8 deg temp as it was still winter during that time.  But how can i walk with a 2 inches heeled shoes? So,  I bought myself a pair of  rubber shoes without checking the price nor its color as it was seling like hotcakes on the store. I walked with my friend about 7 kms which is only halfway home while carrying a whole emergency kit bag provided by the office. ( this deserve a different post) and when I was able to contact my husband who was driving that time and also stuck amidst traffic, we decided to just meet halfway.  The streets were gridlocked, bikes and shoes selling like hotcakes, but I didn’t learn how catastrophic the event had actually been until I got to my home the next day  and turned on the news. The coastal areas of Japan, especially a few hundred miles to the north, were devastated beyond recognition.

News after that was already a bit exagerated and sensationalized. Yes there were few areas where water and gas and even eletricity were cut off. But that was just for a few days. Luckily in my place we never experienced any of that. But i heard from a friend that after a few days everything was back to normal.

This earthquake will be forever burned in my memory as the most harrowing experience of all. I saw hundred-story buildings sway like palm trees in the wind as the earth revolted beneath my feet.

Add a comment June 22, 2011

Checklist if I married my Ideal guy

1. Good Looking. and attractive enough to make me want to make babies with him. Contrary to what a lot of people say, looks are very important. If you’re going to spend the rest of your life with one person, he might as well be eye candy. Well ehem ehem…. i love how he looks and all his eye candy features

2. Emotionally stable. I don’t want someone who’s depressed and who still cries about how his father didn’t make it to his kindergarten graduation ceremony like someone I knew from the past. I tend to become emotionally volatile so good thing i was able to find someone who is somewhat calm, rational, and sane to balance me out.

3. Intelligent and articulate. I don’t just want someone I can mate and procreate with. I need to be able to talk to him too. An intellectual connection is essential for marriage.

4. Faithful. Words cannot stress how important this is to me. I have a jealous streak and the notion that I’m not the most important woman in his life would just kill me. My ideal husband might  check out other women every now and then, but he never chases skirts. Ultimately he considers me a goddess among girls and he wouldn’t even think of sleeping with someone else.

5. FINANCIALLY STABLE. Being an ideal husband is not everything about  the pay check he brings home . But could at least be secure enough to raise a family. On this aspect, i think  I married my ideal guy.

6. HUMOR.  Laughter bonds people. Any good friend will tell you that laughter is the shortest distance between two people — especially in marriage. But one never knows what’s funny to others. This is very important as when all else fails , laughter  can survive everything. I feel lucky enough to have a humor machine in my husband. hehehehehe Wherever you are on this continuum of humor, one thing is certain: Laughter, on a daily basis, is like taking a vitamin for your marriage. And it is a healthy habit all loving couples enjoy.

Add a comment June 21, 2011

NOTE TO PAPA

On this Father’s Day, I want to take a moment to honor you for being such a great Father. These  are the things  I tried to embed the feel into my memory through the years  as someday I know  I’ll write a blog about missing you. And that someday is today.

1. Namulat ako na ikaw na ang kakampi kahit sa anong bagay. Sabi nga ng mga kapitbahay you spoiled me daw kaya maldita ako. Ang di nila alam may pinagmanahan lang ako… and hindi sau kundi kay Mama.. (LOL)

2. Maraming beses na sinisira ko ang bakod na made out of bamboo mo kakalusot ko para mangapitbahay. kaya ginawa mo nilakihan mo na ang space para makalusot ako.

3. Wala kang wallet all your life. Kasi your a typical husband na lahat nakaintrega sa asawa ang pera. Kaswerte naman ni mama. hahahaha

4. Alam ko kapag may LQ kau ni mama kasi laging lechon ang ulam para manuyo ka. Kaya minsan pinagpray ko na sana lagi na lang kayong LQ.

5. Ang pogi pogi mo tuwing Sunday. Dinaig lahat ng congressman sa porma  sabay naka pamada at ang pagkabaho bahong jovan perfume  mo.

6. Dahil sa pagka overprotective mo sa akin, lahat ng bday parties at fiesta na invited ako ng mga high school classmate ko ay kasama ka.

7. Nung first year college na at gusto ko manood ng sine na Casper the friendly ghost with my friends, sinamahan mo pa din ako. Pero enjoy naman ako kasi marami tayong baon

8. Sa bawat umagang paggising namin, walang paltos na nakahanda na ang inuming gatas at sinangag for almusal.

9. Nung time na gusto ko din magbaon ng longganisa na ayaw mo bilhin dahil sabi mo nakalagay sa plastic at baka di matunaw sa tyan ko pero nag give way ka pa din kasi gusto mo din matikman.

10. Ikaw na laging taga shine ng aking dalawang sapatos na pampasok, at taga suklay ng mahaba kong buhok pag tinatamad ako.

11. Pag sinabi ko sayo na first honors ako mag give way ka for Mama na umakyat at magsabit ng ribbon kasi pag 2nd honor ako ikaw naman.

12. Sa tuwing sembreak at uuwi ako, lagi mo akong binibili ng lahat ng paborito kong ulam. At masaya ka ng tinitingnan lang ako

13. Mapasantol, bayabas, mangga, you would always try to give me the biggest one kasi alam mo na gusto ko lagi ako special.

14.We dined out nung una kong sweldo sa isang japanese restaurant and di ko makakalimutan kung pano ka namroblema sa chopstick pero cge lang kasi sabi mo nga experience din yun.

15. Ikaw na umiiyak sa tuwing pinapadalhan kitang bday card at father’s day card. Ngayon kaya umiiyak ka din habang binabasa mo itong blog ko?

16. Nakakamiss din ang mga animated stories mo about sa mga weddings na ninong ka. At mga new experiences mo.

17. Ikaw na taga update ko sa lahat ng tsismis sa paligid mo with matching comments na gumugulong ako sa tawa.

18. Ikaw na laging nagsasabi sa akin na ako na ang pinaka lucky dahil sa dami na ng naexperience ko na di pa naeexperience ng iba.

19. Nung araw na nalaman ko wala ka na, i toured you sa office ko at sa bahay ko  kasi alam ko kasama kita. Pinatunog mo pa nga trash can ko. And i showed you na because of you narating ko na lahat ng dreams ko. Na gusto kong maging masaya ka sa pag alis mo knowing na hindi nasayang lahat ng pinaghirapan mo.

20.  never ka nakialam sa lovelife choices ko pero nag sa side comments lang at times. Pero nung pinakilala ko na sayo si K at nag i love you daddy sau, alam ko nakuha nya na agad ang puso mo kasi napa i love you back ka din. hehehehe

21. When I saw you sa coffin mo resting peacefully umurong lahat ng luha ko. Parang pinigilan mong pumatak kasi i remember na ayaw na ayaw mo akong nakikitang umiiyak.. Pero Pa ang gusto mo pala gradual lang ang patak kasi feeling mo siguro one time luha lang ang ipapatak ko. Well mali ka, kasi sa tuwing naaalala kita kusa na lang syang pumapatak.

22. Nung pinasyal ko sina mama and Jun sa ibang bansa at sa mga lugar na di pa nila nakikita, naisip na naman kita. lahat ng tables sa mga restaurant lagi na lang may isang bakante. Para namang sinasadya ng waiter na reserve para sayo. Na da diet tuloy ako kasi pano ka ba naman makakain na parang tutulo na luha mo at magiging sabaw. But i know you were with us doing some tricks, for us to feel your presence.

23. Hindi na ako nanghihinayang ngayon na di mo naranasan makapasyal man lang sa lahat ng napuntahan ko kasi i know lagi pa din kitang kasama. At least libre ka na sa airplane at visa processing.

I lost you 3 years ago but I still have days and moments when I am consumed with grief and i cannot understand why it happened so soon. Its life altering and its something i will never forget or get over. I know that this experience has change me forever. Just remembering  all the good times we shared  and all the love you gave me throughout all those years.  You will definitely  live in my heart forever. I love you Papa.

Add a comment June 21, 2011

RENEWAL of VOWS

years ago we made a pledge before God and all those we hold dear to be committed to one another and love one another for life. And today my heart rejoices as we celebrate that promise that has only grown stronger as we have traveled down life’s road together. I am so lucky to have you in my life. You are still the best part of each day. You still have the power to surprise me with your love and consideration. You still make me laugh until my sides hurt. And it is my heart’s prayer that in another 10 years we will still be celebrating all of these things. You have made my life complete and secure, through good times and challenges, and helped me become a better person. Thank you for making my dreams come true. Thank you for being the most special part of my world. I promise to always be beside you as your loving and devoted wife and give you the very best of me. I love you with all my heart…and I always will.”

Add a comment January 24, 2011

Christmas gifts and my Santa

Santa had been generous this year in different persona.

1. Santa Colleagues- My officemates, bosses, business partners had been so generous with their gifts.  I really wanted to open those gifts infront of them, for them to see how appreciative I am with their gifts.. Their gifts is as gorgeous as the giver.

2.  GIFTS FROM BOSSES- I must have been good this year to deserve  your gifts aside from my bonus… Thanks

3.  GIFTS FROM MOM IN-LAW, SIS IN-LAW, FATHER IN LAW and nephews- You are all the sweetest. I always feel loved and welcomed in your family. Love you all.

4.  FROM MY VERY OWN SANTA HUBBY)-  a week before xmas he asked me to hang a big socks near the foyer. I ask him how big? He said just enough to accomodate something from santa. 2 days before xmas, he was already eyeing this thing to give me for xmas but as I am in my tantrum self, I told him not to give me anything if its not the one I really like. So past forward to xmas day,  my socks was empty. I asked him whats the use of the socks I hanged. He just laugh at me and asked me to go with him at NOJIMA electronic store and choose my gift… All the while now Ive been eyeing this new gadget by samsung- Samsung Galaxy S Tab. Its so much better from the famous IPAD. I was so happy with my gift.. heheheh

Gifts are just material things as others may think. Yes it is but isnt it much better and fun receiving them regardless of the cost. Just the fact of being remembered  while buying and packing those gifts is truly worth it.

Add a comment December 27, 2010

I still see you 6 years ago

With all your love and gentle soul

You fought for things that you believed

Your dreams were there to achieve

I felt as though my journey done

My heart cried out you were the one

You saved me from my own demise

The moment I saw your chinky cute eyes

I melted when you took my hand

That’s when our life together began

I never thought I’d be so blessed

To never wonder or second guess

 I’ve known right from the very start

That you would always protect my heart

So in your hands I place my life

And thank you for letting me be your wife

Add a comment November 26, 2010

Happy Birthday Miomer!!!aka Momo

Add a comment November 26, 2010

MOM to her child

 

*I gave you life, but cannot live it for you.

*I can give you directions, but I cannot be there to lead you.

* I can take you to church, but I cannot make you believe.

* I can buy you beautiful clothes,but I cannot make you beautiful inside.

*I can give you love, but I cannot force it upon you.

*I can teach you to share, but I cannot make you unselfish.

*I can teach you respect, but I cannot force you to show honor.

*I can advise you about friends, but cannot choose them for you.

*I can advise you about sex, but I cannot keep you pure.

*I can tell you about alcohol & drugs,but I cannot say “no” for you.

*I can tell you about lofty goals, but I cannot achieve them for you.

*I can teach you about kindness, but I cannot force you to be gracious.

*I can pray for you, but I cannot make you walk with God.

*I can tell you how to live, but I cannot give you eternal life.

*I can love you with unconditional love all of my life…. and I will.

Add a comment November 26, 2010